-Weighty issues again!

i keep telling myself that i am not obssesed with my weight and that i love how i look, i know that deep down i would love to be a bit curvy. I lost a pound over the last one week and it really brought me down when i saw that. My friend was with me when i discovered the sad news, she is all 'rounded' you see, and she went like

''wow, i wish i was as slender as you are''
and am like ''u mean that?'' at this point i was really feeling good about myself, i felt beautiful for a while i appreciated myself. A while latter we were looking at clothes and she thought it was sad that i couldnt fit into some clothes. uuh, yeah! so now its sad being me.

so the decision i made to add weight is not one that am doing to please anyone or to be someone am not. I have taken time to think about this, i know the risks involved and so am making sure i get the best and safest regimes available. I love how i look, but i do need a change. If this doesnt work, i will still love being me, I was going through some pages online and some articles on books, i realised that adding weight is equally as hard as losing it, the thought of lifting weights has never crossed my mind, turns out that at some point i have to, Weight lifting can aid in losing the weight while building muscle. Sometimes being "too skinny" can be just as difficult a problem to solve as being "too fat." for me to achieve a desirable body weight and shape involves changes in lifestyle - including diet, exercise. the good thing is i do not have to worry about eating all the fatty and sweet foods thats an automatic IN for me unlike those trying to lose weight.... heheheh

i know this will and might take time, am not going to give up!